ReDeployment Back Home

Its been almost an Entire Year! Where has time gone? Our Soldiers' return seems so close that its almost surreal. Many Army Wives have been through it but now it's my turn. I have dreamed of his return several times, what is it going to be like? In the beginning of the Deployment, I pictured all of the wives in a line with our arms out, so excited to see them but it seems like reality has kicked in recently. Nothing has seemed to go as planned and of course that is Normal, Right? Army Life, Normal, Ha! I think that may be an oxymoron. As I spoke to my mother-in-law tonight, we laughed at life even possibly being normal. She was a previous Air Force Wife of 10 years with 3 kids in the mix, so she has had her share of " The Normal Military Life" as well.

I was so full of excitement for this time to come and boy oh' boy it came fast! In the beginning, I would cringe at those wonderful, loving, and all-knowing people who would say "It will go by so fast". Now those words are true. Now don't get me wrong, those days were long but the months went by so quickly. I recommend you staying busy! Have an agenda, get a hobby, or make Christian friends. I emphasize Christian because they will lift you up, not tear you down.I encourage all military wives to make at least one Christian military friend  (wife/girlfriend)  to talk to in the Unit your Soldier is attached to during the deployment. They not only hold you accountable but pray with  and encourage you. They are going through the same emotional roller coaster ride as you. Its not good for you to hang out with the single ladies or non believers because they do not understand our Duty as Godly wives. Not all are like this but many are, its better to stick with married, if you are married. I have saw too many lose their marriages this way and not only in the military world.

I was designating the end of this Deployment to Only God, I was planning on setting myself aside for him and I, and when you make up your mind to do something for God, then Satan will try to destroy it. In the last two weeks I have been busier than this entire deployment. With sick twin toddlers, last get-togethers with the families in the unit, running errands, and all of the above. Now add a blizzard in the mix! Satan really is trying. So for all of you out there who really are trying, just know God knows your hearts! Last night as I was at my wits end, with high-fever-non-eating-screaming toddlers, I decided to get on my knees and cry out to God. Can you believe what happend? God wrapped his arms around me and spoke so softly "I'm Here". As I lay there God spoke to me about many things in my life and not in that loud audible voice as the movies portray but to my heart where only I know its coming from him, because I know I wouldn't think these things. God wants all of you to know he is there too!

God wants you to know he wants you to feel Loved. He wants you to know he is here for you and will walk with you in everything but he gives you and I that choice. Its a Choice and last night I made a choice to Cry out to him, in those times of Desperation, when we are dry, barren and Empty on the inside, God knows it.  God wants to wrap his Arms around you. I felt like a child all over again getting my Daddy's hugs. I remember starting to cry out to God and something (being the Devil) told me, he's not listening because you have not spent as much time with him as you said you would. Then I recalled a simple yet wonderful Scripture John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Thats all it requires of me for God to hear me, I am a child of his. I trust him and his word.

I once heard something that I will never forget from my Father-in-Law: When you have reached the top of the mountain and look around its cold and nothing grows there but as you look down the mountain on both sides their is lots of life, so remember life is much like this. As your climbing the mountain its tough but as you come back down there is life again.

You may just be waiting on God to Instruct you on which path to take back down the mountain, but wait on him. Isaiah 40:31 says it best: But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired. I don't know what this Life has to throw at me next but I do know that I am waiting on the Lord, during this season. Rather than I doing the instructing, he is instructing. I think sometimes he just has to remind us " He is in Control" and we need to relax.
So if your Soldier is soon to arrive, just relax, let God take the pen and notepad, so that he can write down the instructions for you to follow. Its hard to do but what better timing, than right before the "Head of our House" arrives back home.

Joshua 24:15 .. but as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD